“creating time” by marney k. makridakis was a book that i picked up at the library, after reading about it on amazon.com. the amazon reviews were splendid, and the book seemed to have a great mix of art and self-help, two of my favorite reading genres. 😉
after finding it at the library (which was rather a shock, as my local library’s selection isn’t always geared toward my tastes), i snatched it up, brought it home, and…let it sit. i looked over the first few pages, and didn’t feel like it was going to live up to my original expectations. a week later, i picked it up again, thinking i just need to give the book a chance.
and wow, i am so glad that i did. this book is a game changer.
the primary life lesson i’m taking away from this book is the comparison of kairos versus chronos. based on marney’s descriptions of the two, chronos is clock time. it’s essentially watching the clock, racing the clock, beating the clock, cheating the clock, all of those things we do to control time, when in the end, that kind of time effectively rules us. or rules me, anyway, as i feel insanely and unreasonably controlled by literal, chronological time.
it stresses me out to no end.
conversely, kairos is the essense of time, the substance of time, the kind of time that is full and spilling over, whether with fun, emotion, fulfillment, feeling, or all of the above. it’s the time that truly matters.
as i’m applying the principles from “creating time,” i’m noticing that my stress and depression are generally a result of my lack of control over chronos. and on the other hand, when i’m feeling content and full of life, i’m floating along with kairos.
in an attempt to truly understand these two senses of time, i’ve decided, at least in the beginning, to compartmentalize the two. when i’m consciously dedicating myself to kairos, my time is slower, fuller, and feels like it is enough. and when i forget to maintain that sense of kairos, and accidentally switch into chronos, or “clock mode,” i feel like i am being cheated out of time, like there isn’t enough, like it’s racing through my fingers like sand. chronos brings me back to a feeling of hopelessness and helplessness that i cannot stop or control.
and in order to change this game, in order to step out of the depression that so often takes hold of me, i have found that living in and moving with the essence of time that is kairos is going to be a lifelong tool that will help me keep the clay beneath me.
i have got to change the way i play this game, and measuring my live in kairos and love, rather than in the tickety-tock of the slave-maker, is going to be the first major, conscious step i take in creating that change.
i’d recommend “creating time” to anyone who loves art (even a little bit), and who feels like there is never, ever enough time.